The Girl I Once Knew

I’m sorry that I didn’t listen to you.   
All the red flags of a life not lead, 
I simply wanted what I didn’t have. 

But no one could tell me otherwise, 
that a mistake was around the bend, 
forming a ball of destruction,  
leading me down a path that was scorched with regret.

But there I ran until my legs went slack,  
and my lips went blue with lies I no longer knew. 

You could say I was a child, foaming at the mouth looking for a way out.
But as I stood at the doorway of my demise,
I only thought of you, the girl I once knew.

And wondered what could have happened if I didn’t lose you,
Would I have died? 
Or would I have become a butterfly floating in the wind with the rest 
of the children?